So… after a bit of soul-searching, and a bit of further research, I figured that much of the world of conspiracy theories is extremely questionable at best. Its just the kind of thing that has so many people absolutely petrified of the outside world, chasing their own tails and not getting any closer to any kind of truth about what they’re on about. There is also a tendency to be extremely dogmatic about it. One thing that illustrates this is the recent hype about Elenin culminating with Obama’s visit to Denver, where the infamous Denver International Airport is, with all of its gruesome murals and Masonic symbols. I never really bought into it myself, seeing as how just about every comet that passes us is held up as a sign by the batshit crazy that the end is nigh.
The obsession with symbols on corporate logos would be another example, like you can’t depict an eye without it being the same All-Seeing Eye as the one associated with the Illuminati, like a bull can’t just be a bull, it has to be a depiction of some old dead Middle-Eastern god that you are being tricked into ‘worshipping’ through buying the product.
Really… if everything really was owned and controlled by the ‘Illuminati’, including every opposition to them including a LEADERLESS ‘group’ like Anonymous, why even bother opposing anything then? Why even bother taking any kind of meaningful action to bring this system down? Hell, why even bother going on living if its the destiny of all of us to be wiped out to get the population down to what the Georgia Guidestones say it should be?
Of course this dovetails into something else I’ve grown to really abhor about the so-called ‘Truth’ Movement. There’s so much damn infighting. Whether its Alex Jones being labeled a pawn of the Jesuits, David Icke being ‘outed’ as a Reptilian himself, Ron Paul being called out as ‘controlled opposition’ for allegedly making certain hand-signs, the crucifixion of Charlie Veitch for daring to commit the unforgivable heresy of changing his mind about 9/11 or the demonization of anyone who gets big enough to earn mention in the Old Media, its absolutely asinine.
It has left me wondering just what kind of person you have to be to not be either a member of the cabal, a willing servant of the cabal, an unwitting useful idiot or a blind sheep, and I have to say, it ain’t pretty. They’re too damn busy pointing the finger at others, when if they really want to see someone who is helping spread darkness in the world, they need only take a look in the mirror, because the fear they’re helping to spread is very unhealthy to say the least.
I probably seem like I’m giving these people a hard time now. After all, I of all people should know irrational fear as intimately as one should know thyself. I’ve battled crippling anxiety issues for as long as I can remember, and being dragooned into such a brutal, Lord Of The Flies free-for-all in the schoolyard certainly exacerbated this. In hindsight there were definitely things I could have done differently if only I had the right guidance. I sure as hell know what it feels like to be in such a fear based paralysis that I literally can’t muster the nerve to step out that door. I’ve been there. But there comes a time when one needs to stop externalizing everything they’re so afraid of, and work on the darkness within.
Yes, there are definitely conspiracies happening. Yes, there’s definitely a lot of things the powers that be are not telling us about such things as the extra terrestrials, what goes on beneath the Vatican, or what’s in those vaccines that aren’t even putting a dent into the rates of disease in the Third World. Yes, bankers like the Rothschilds are definitely running the world through their paid shills in the government and presstitutes in the Old Media. Yes, Freemasonry gives me the creeps as well. But can’t you let in the idea that all this evil isn’t as omnipresent as you are thinking it is?
I’m sorry if I sound like I’m a shill at this point, if I sound to you like a heretic in the style of Charlie Veitch, but I’m just calling it the way I see it now. I really hate to have to say this to those of you stuck on these issues, but you are out of your minds and I would regret having delved into any of this stuff if not for the opportunity it allowed me to face some of my personal demons. So I suppose I can consider this particular blog post to be something of a catharsis.
Personally, I’m optimistic about the future. Yes, we’re going through a lot of pain right now, and there’s still more to come… but what we’re talking about here is almost completely unprecedented… dismantling such a firmly entrenched force as that which has gripped us for thousands of years takes a bit of time after all.
I know its going to drive a lot of these people crazy, and I really don’t like what this man did as President, but I’m going to quote him anyway: “The only thing we have to fear is fear itself.” 
